Unless you are born rich or got rich pretty easily by doing things the right way by accident, getting materially rich really is a spiritual quest.
I notice this more and more. I have been one (as so many) who has been raised with the 'save your money because bad days maybe coming-consciousness'. Although I never did that (I always spent my money :-), the fear of lack is deeply programmed in my mind.
My life has always been a quest for independance. Very soon after I graduated, I became self-employed in life insurance. Even then, I was already confronted with the responsability for my own income, which is something completely different than being employed and getting your paycheck every mont. Even this 'certainty' is an illusion obviously, because someone 'keeping' his job is as 'uncertain' as a self employed getting enough customers. But we 'think' we are more certain, which makes it more certain. See the trick? :-)
And this is what it is really about. It is about what you believe is your 'source' of income. (funny word, now I look at it in this perspective :-) Now that I am a fully self-employed life coach for some time, I get confronted with these old fears again, and even on a way stronger level! Because now (as opposed to my period in life insurance) I do not live with my parents anymore, but in a beautiful house in Brussels, I don't get company trips anymore and pay for my for luxurious travels around the world myself, I don't drive the car anymore I got from my parents when I was 21 yo, but monthly pay off a decent amount on a nice car. And although my finances have never been as good as now, this little old voice still wants to convince me of the bad that might be coming, of the customers who might stay away, of the big bill I will not be able to pay ...
And so it (still) is quite some practice to keep my focus on the way of thinking that already got me where I am. (which is pretty good already even if I say it myself :-p).
You wanna know why? Well, because I am never satisfied. And I always want more. I want to see how far I can take it.
And that, my friends, really is spiritual practice. Because what is enlightenment anyway? It is being able to only hear your souls voice, to only listen the voice of the universe, of source and to always focus on the idea that shows your highest vision.
Without my quest for 'more', I would cease to do this. I would just glide into a new comfort zone, albeit a very comfortable one :-) Without wanting to know how much abundance can flow trhough me, I would just get stuck in new paradigms, in new ways of fixed thinking and 'security'.
Many times in my quest in the last years, in small moments of despair, I have thought: 'I'm just gonna go to India and meditatie in some Ashram for a few years'. Although this is an experience I am most certainly going to have (albeit for a few months instead of years :-), it would just be an escape. It would just be spiritual weakness. Because there is nothing 'hard', nor 'enlightning' about spending your years in a convent. (don't get me wrong, I am a great proponent of mediation - I'll tell you about that in another blog!).
You would just be escaping the opportunity of being able to do what you came to do here in the first place: create. Mould the clay. Make the vision reality. Train your mind to focus. Master your mind. Live all days in joy and abundance.
So sure, the money is not the goal, the toys are not the goal. But they are a great means for you to focus. They offer a great chance for you to see how great you faith really is. How much you really trust your self. How much you really trust source - god - the universe - life - whatever.
So please do not feel guilty for wanting more! Know that it is your Source who is calling you towards it. Make the downpayment for the trip you so want to make! Fill out the registration form for the seminar you know will change your life!
Here's to all yours abundance!
That you may be rich without trying!
That you may be joyous without 'having'
That you may know your inner wealth,
which is the wealth of the universe,
infinite love
and life.
Big hug,
Dietrich x
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Emoclouds
Apparently I am not ready yet with 'emotions' dear readers.
Lately I have been experiencing something new to me. Ever since I have been working with the law of attraction, and specifically Abraham, I have been interpreting 'negative' emotions as zn indicator that I was - consciously or subconsioulsy - focused on something negative. So a lot of my work over the years has been obsereving my emotions, observing my thoughts and correcting them if necessary. And I must say, this has resulted in an incredible life experience, where feeling good is the norm, and getting what I want is plain logic.
But still, in the las few months, although there was 'contrast' which would explain it partly, I experienced negative emotions without me seeing what the reason was.
This for me was not easy to handle, as I had gotten used to the change thought, change emotion, change attraction way of working.
And thanks to some good coaching, my answer was revealed to me. This answer by the way, had already partly been given in the Abraham Australia cruise beginning this year. Let me start by telling you about that experience.
A woman was called into the hot seat on the podium. (for people who have not experienced Abraham yet, their workshops are a Q&A, where Abraham picks somebody out of the public who has an interesting issue going on that they can talk about.)
So this woman came up the stage. She was laughing and had a very positive vibration about her. But when Abraham asked her what her question was, she said she had a feeling that there was something important boiling in her, and that it felt great, but that she had no idea what it was. So although she sat in the hotseat, she did not have a question.
Abraham had the most interesting explanation for that. They said before thoughts are verbalised, 'materialised' in words, they are potential thought, energetic thought before words, so to say. But although the thoughts haven't been labeled with words yet, they do already have an emotional indicator of the quality of the potential thought. So which basically means, you can already feel good about a thought, an idea, you are still cooking up.
I thought this was brilliant!!!
But it became even better when I attached this to my 'negative emotionclouds'. My 'feeling bad for no reason' could be explained in two directions. They could be an indicator of a possible negative idea that was forming in my mind. Or, and I find this even better, they could just be the remains of old, negative programming that I have already cleared. They are the last evidence of negative focus. And so - again -I have to do nothing more than to let go. Let go, let go, let go ... Even if I don't see the reason. And luckily I do see less and less reasons.
My life experience already grew to be fantastic due to 'positive thinking'. Having discovered this latest thing, I can even stop the manifestation of something unwanted before it has even become thought, let alone that it would manifest in material life.
How cool is that!
Thought I should share this with you :-)
Have a great day everybody!
Lately I have been experiencing something new to me. Ever since I have been working with the law of attraction, and specifically Abraham, I have been interpreting 'negative' emotions as zn indicator that I was - consciously or subconsioulsy - focused on something negative. So a lot of my work over the years has been obsereving my emotions, observing my thoughts and correcting them if necessary. And I must say, this has resulted in an incredible life experience, where feeling good is the norm, and getting what I want is plain logic.
But still, in the las few months, although there was 'contrast' which would explain it partly, I experienced negative emotions without me seeing what the reason was.
This for me was not easy to handle, as I had gotten used to the change thought, change emotion, change attraction way of working.
And thanks to some good coaching, my answer was revealed to me. This answer by the way, had already partly been given in the Abraham Australia cruise beginning this year. Let me start by telling you about that experience.
A woman was called into the hot seat on the podium. (for people who have not experienced Abraham yet, their workshops are a Q&A, where Abraham picks somebody out of the public who has an interesting issue going on that they can talk about.)
So this woman came up the stage. She was laughing and had a very positive vibration about her. But when Abraham asked her what her question was, she said she had a feeling that there was something important boiling in her, and that it felt great, but that she had no idea what it was. So although she sat in the hotseat, she did not have a question.
Abraham had the most interesting explanation for that. They said before thoughts are verbalised, 'materialised' in words, they are potential thought, energetic thought before words, so to say. But although the thoughts haven't been labeled with words yet, they do already have an emotional indicator of the quality of the potential thought. So which basically means, you can already feel good about a thought, an idea, you are still cooking up.
I thought this was brilliant!!!
But it became even better when I attached this to my 'negative emotionclouds'. My 'feeling bad for no reason' could be explained in two directions. They could be an indicator of a possible negative idea that was forming in my mind. Or, and I find this even better, they could just be the remains of old, negative programming that I have already cleared. They are the last evidence of negative focus. And so - again -I have to do nothing more than to let go. Let go, let go, let go ... Even if I don't see the reason. And luckily I do see less and less reasons.
My life experience already grew to be fantastic due to 'positive thinking'. Having discovered this latest thing, I can even stop the manifestation of something unwanted before it has even become thought, let alone that it would manifest in material life.
How cool is that!
Thought I should share this with you :-)
Have a great day everybody!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Emo's in the seat of consciousness
Dear friends,
What an interesting week it has been again! After a long period of easy flow, since a few months it is contrast over contrast. Shifts in career, shifts in my relationships, shifts in the place we live ...
And realy, although it often is less 'comfortable' that the ease and flow periods, these contrast periods are so much more interesting, because they make you look intensly at your life and how you really want it to be.
This period has helped me seeing 'negativity' in another way. It has learned me to love the periods where I feel my vibration dropping, as I know now that this does not meet something is wrong, but that I am merely observing a situation in my life that is ready to improve, but that I am just not seeing it yet. It has helped me to relax and trust the proces that whenever you are observing something unwanted, the wanted is already there and that I just need to relax and let go and let the improved vision chrystalise in my mind. And by the automatic Rising of my vibration of the letting go process, I know I am on the right track.
Of course my goal remains to always feel good, but this insight has made it possible to feel good even in the moments that are more difficult.
Once consciousness is there, there is no more dispair whatever the situation. It absolutely is possible to watch your emotions play, while you are sitting in your conscious seat. Watch your little ego ask for things and getting a little frustrated that they are not there yet or that they are not as it wants them to be, and you just observing that and knowing that it is fine and that as soon as you get your thoughts, your ego, alighned again or at least convinced it to let go, the shift will hapen, and the wanted, whatever it is, is on the way.
It realy, truely is not about the toys, fun as they are.
It is about the feeling good, the aligning with the idea.
And the absolute knowing, in whatever emotional state you are, that everything is fine, that you are safe and cared for and surrounded by love.
That you are love in its purest form.
I whish you all great contrast for the creating of your most beautifull dreams and that a deep trust in the consciousness, in your consciousness, will help you to let go and alighn with your dreams. To be your dreams.
Have a great day everybody!
What an interesting week it has been again! After a long period of easy flow, since a few months it is contrast over contrast. Shifts in career, shifts in my relationships, shifts in the place we live ...
And realy, although it often is less 'comfortable' that the ease and flow periods, these contrast periods are so much more interesting, because they make you look intensly at your life and how you really want it to be.
This period has helped me seeing 'negativity' in another way. It has learned me to love the periods where I feel my vibration dropping, as I know now that this does not meet something is wrong, but that I am merely observing a situation in my life that is ready to improve, but that I am just not seeing it yet. It has helped me to relax and trust the proces that whenever you are observing something unwanted, the wanted is already there and that I just need to relax and let go and let the improved vision chrystalise in my mind. And by the automatic Rising of my vibration of the letting go process, I know I am on the right track.
Of course my goal remains to always feel good, but this insight has made it possible to feel good even in the moments that are more difficult.
Once consciousness is there, there is no more dispair whatever the situation. It absolutely is possible to watch your emotions play, while you are sitting in your conscious seat. Watch your little ego ask for things and getting a little frustrated that they are not there yet or that they are not as it wants them to be, and you just observing that and knowing that it is fine and that as soon as you get your thoughts, your ego, alighned again or at least convinced it to let go, the shift will hapen, and the wanted, whatever it is, is on the way.
It realy, truely is not about the toys, fun as they are.
It is about the feeling good, the aligning with the idea.
And the absolute knowing, in whatever emotional state you are, that everything is fine, that you are safe and cared for and surrounded by love.
That you are love in its purest form.
I whish you all great contrast for the creating of your most beautifull dreams and that a deep trust in the consciousness, in your consciousness, will help you to let go and alighn with your dreams. To be your dreams.
Have a great day everybody!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Caught in between truths!
Dear readers,
Sorry for not writing to you in almost a week.
The reason for this is an argument going on in my head for quite some time now.
This actually is Abraham’s fault.
(I have to shock you don’t I?) J
Allow me to explain.
My life is beautiful. I’m doing the job I love to do, I live in a beautiful house and have a fantastic relationship, I have great friends and meet new ones on our travels around the world, I feel blessed and inspired and I love life.
And still, there is so much more. Not so much more I want to ‘get’ (although ‘getting’ is completely fine! J), but so much more I want to give.
I want to give an English website so that people over the whole world can find an contact me.
I want to give a book about my own story, because I believe it can be inspiring to people to quit the mess they (think they) are in and start living the life of their dreams.
I want to blog, facebook and twitter you guys every day, because every day I am blessed with so many insights that it seems such a waste not to share them.
I want to put my mediation sessions on audio and give them away for free on my website.
I want to give you videomessages on youtube.
But something holds me back.
And it is not a negative programming!
If it were that, I would change it, that is my job J
It actually is a POSITIVE programming.
Not even a programming, it is a TRUTH.
The truth being: I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING.
After some great coaching with my best friend and colleague-coach Inge Rock (yes, add her on facebook, she is great! J), we uncovered something that is actually so obvious, that I managed not to see it until now. It is a condition I have been suffering from ever since I was a little child and that is: I do not want to do what you tell me to do!
I have always had (as so many of you probably) the feeling that I had to do a lot of things in my life that I really did not want to do, things that made only other people happy (which obviously did not work), or that I was supposed to do to lead a successful life. Inside of me, there has always been an awareness that this was not how it was supposed to be, a feeling of unfairness.
Not being able to always ‘resist’ this awareness, I was often labeled as ‘bad’, as ‘smart but unwilling’, as ‘stubborn’ and ‘not-cooperative’.
However, being every bit as human as all of you, I tried to live up to these expectations, ignored my inner feeling and tried to live the ‘have-to-life’ … and –although never very successful- a ‘have-to-personality’ got created in my own mind.
And then of course, you come in contact with The Law of Attraction, for me best represented by Esther Hicks and Abraham, basically saying ‘there is nothing you need do’ and ‘you can be, do are have, everything you want’. This obviously feels exhilarating to my long-not-heard inner child voice, who tells me now: ‘you see, I told you so, there is nothing we need to do!!!”
This of course puts you in a funny position.
I cannot ignore the voice of my inner child (not that I would want to J), because it has been ignored for so long, and more importantly: it is right! On so many levels of my life by now, I have experienced this in the last few years working with this material. The less ‘effort’ I did, the easier for example, money came flowing in.
On the other hand, I do want to do all these things listed in the beginning of my blog. Not because I have to, but because I want to. And if a want this to manifest, some action will be necessary. Even I would be able to find somebody who writes my book for me (not that I want that, let us be clear about that J), I would still have to speak the words!
And this beautiful coaching session made this clear to me (thank you Inge!). Both voices in my head are right, but until now, they have been opposing each other. Whenever my adult voice said: ‘today we have to do this or that’, I got an immediate block of my inner child saying: ‘we do not have to do anything … look, even Abraham says so!’ J
So this blog is the first realization in making them communicate: the caring but still a bit too stressful parent in my head, and the child within only wanting to do what is pleasing.
And by the feeling in my tummy, it is a great experiment and I feel so happy sharing this blog with you.
There can exist two truths in your mind, that seem to oppose each other, but if they see each other’s truth, they can cooperate and co-create.
‘Co-creation at its best’ as Abraham would say J
There is great love for you here …
Have a great day lovely people x
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
"Beware ... Life Coach out of Vortex in New York"
Dear readers,
One of the main reasons I wanted to start a blog, is because of a frequently asked question by my clients. This question is "so, you never feel bad anymore???"
It always shocks me imagining that they really think that, because the answer is "OF COURSE I FEEL BAD every once in a while"
But I can see how they would come to that conclusion. Clients only see me when I am completely focused on them which always means I push myself in the best possible mood at that time. Clients see my website which only talks about how wonderfull life really is - and it really is obviously, but I, just as you, do not see that always, all of the time. People see me on seminars, in my suit, or completely relaxed during an early morning meditation session I'm holding.
So I get why they might think that I never feel bad anymore. But that is not true! Ask my husbant for that matter! :-)
What is true however, is of course, that I know what is happening when I get in a bad mood and that I know that it brings a message and that I know what to do to turn it around and make it a blessing.
But to humour you - and myself :-), I am going to share with you a little out of the Vortex moment from The Life Coach during a blizzard in New York.
We had spent some beautifull sunny days in Fort Lauderdale and were returing to Belgium that day, flying over Newark. Our plain left at noon, so we were at the airport by 10am. At checkin they asked us if we wanted to take an earlier flight, because the one we were on was delayed because of heavy snowfall in New York. The lady assured us that Newark was staying open and that we could leave. So we did.
After circuling above Newark for an hour because of the bad weather, we finally landed. Arriving at the airport, everything was chaos, but like a miracle our flight was not cancelled and flying on time. So at 6pm we embarked, feeling happy and well.
6 hours later however, we felt a little less well. After having heard numorous announcements that we were going to leave in a minute, finally at 12pm our flight got cancelled. Having seen every Harry Potter movie available, I myself was ready to hex somebody.
But I staid calm and zen (I am a very good lier, especially to myself). A little blizzard and possibly an extra night an day in New York were not going to throw me out of my Vortex. (The truth being, I was already slightly out).
After half an hour of waiting (wasn't really more then a few minutes), when nobody made an announcement (which they obviously should have), I went to one of the ground-stewards, who friendly told me that the airport was closing and that we had to get in line to rebook our flight for he-did-not-know-when. Or that we checked by phone or online, which was probably the best idea, he said.
Hearing this, I thought, we have to get out of here. We're gonna take a cab to a hotel and come back tomorrow. My vibe was still pretty much ok. (so I told myself). Walking down the corridor, in a flash I realised I had left my newly bought, super-de-luxe, flashing red headphones on the plain. I turned around to go back, only to be abrubtly stopped by one of the 'the terrorists are going to attack us'- police officer. There was no way I was getting back in.
This sucked.
Calmly we walked to the entrance hall of the airport, (looked more like a stressed chicken running away from it's butchers) to look for a cab. Given the snow, sadly, there were no cabs, but luckily, I saw a little bus picking up people for a hotel, so we quickly ran up there and asked the driver if there were any rooms available. Again, another red flag, because the hotel was fully booked, but the kind man offered us a drive to the next terminal where there were telephones and lists available from all the hotels in the neighbourhood of the airport. Finally a ray of light ... my spirits lifted (which you could never guess by the look on my face) and of we were again!
Entering the other terminal, we immediatly sensed that this was not the right place to be. Desperate people where clinging on the telephones to trie and find ONE hotel that still had rooms available. As you can guess, I was one of those idiots clinging to the phone.
My heart jumped up as -after the tenth NO- a voice finally said: yes, we do have rooms available ...
But it sunk back in my shoes when I heard him continuing: ... but we cannot pick you up from the airport.
I was turning green.
But me turning green and tumbling out of my Vortex, does not mean I am gonna give up!
I found out that we could get to the trainstation by monorail. Fantastic, I thought, we're just gonna stay in New York City. That's even better!
Again I had cheered a little bit to soon, as just as we had decided this, one of the monorails got blocked by the snow, so the only direction we could go was the terminal we came from.
Bart wanted to do this (he is faster in accepting situations than I am :-), but I staid focused on getting to New York. And luckily I did that, because after a while, they decided tot use one monorail to go in both directions.
So we finally got on the train to New York. Which was wonderfull, but I have to be honest with you. Although it was working out pretty well, I was tired and feeling pretty low. My ego started whining, I was cold and I wanted my headphones.
Arriving in NYC, we immediatly found a nice hotel and went to bed.
The morning after, my spirits were quite ok, but that -again- was not for long. A few weeks earlier I had bought myself an Ipad. So I went online to rebook our flight. After a few annoying messages, basically saying that it was not possible to rebook online, my ego started whining again. But there was another option: we could call Continental. And so we did. And believe it or not, but after having been held on hold for almost half an hour, the lady on the other side said to me when I was finally connected: I am sorry sir, this seems to be a bad line and I cannot properly hear you, so please call back.
I shouted NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I CAN HEAR YOU PERFECTLY!!!!
But she had already gone.
Furiously I wanted to get back online to try and fix it there. You'll never believe this but, my new bought Ipad, which was my new favorite toy, went dead on me. No more life in it. And NO REASON WHY (hèhè :-)
I was dumbstruck. How could so many things go wrong?
My neck and shoulders were hurting. I had been getting so stressed, it was high time to let go!
Bart said: let's have breakfast first. Which we did. And you can image in which foul mood I was.
Coming back to our room, Bart rang back to Continental and after another half an hour, learned that we had been automatically booked for the 6.30pm flight that same day.
FINALLY SOME GOOD NEWS!
But it was not over yet.
We boarded on time that evening and the captain announced our departure in a few minutes.
If this does not shock you, it absolutely shocked me as ...
on that very moment, a day after the airport had been closed and hundreds (maybe thousands) of people had stranded there, Customs decided that it was a good idea to unload that whole aircraft again and check the luggage.
Three hours later, we finally flew back to Belgium.
Why am I telling you this story?
Well, obviously because you can see that I, and every other life coach, teachter or whatever nametag you can use, am just a human being, with human emotions and still makes the same stupid mistakes as everybody else does.
But more importantly because of the lessons in this story. The fact that:
* without all my mental rambling and resisting, the story could have been:
Luckily they held down the plain and shut down the airport so that nobody got hurt. Thanks to that we had an extra day of shopping in New York. The sun was shining brightly, the pavements were snowfree and it was the most beautifull day. We bought some clothes (as we were standing there in our Fort Lauderdale T-shirts and slippers) and had a fantastic time. We went back to the airport and counting our blessing we flew back home.
* we did have a fantastic time, even with my mental rambling
* due to my persistant focus, we did end up in a beautifull hotel, while a lot of people stayed overnight in the airport and had little or no sleep, let alone a beautifull day in New York.
* there is always room for expanding your ideas. Why did I resist so much? Certainly not because it really was that bad, because it wasn't! And I even saw that in the middle of my rambling. But you know what the thing is?
Expectation.
By learning to live more and more according to Law of Attraction and de 'knowledge' that you create your life the way you want it to, you expect that you decide the way it is gonna work out. And you do not expect things 'going wrong' anymore. And my internal fight was way more about the fact that 'this should not happen to me anymore', than the fact that is really was that bad.
It was not bad at all.
It was fantastic.
And I feel so blessed again to have received this beautifull lesson.
Contrast, I call it now, my new best friend, who teaches me the most profound lessons.
And of course, next time, on another occasion, I will again fall out of my Vortex. And ramble again.
But my conscious voice has grown stronger again, which will make the insights come quicker and with more ease. And that's what it's all about.
I wish you all big contrast,
with bigger visions of yourself,
and a quick and smooth ligning up with that new best vision of yourself.
Have a great day everybody!
x
One of the main reasons I wanted to start a blog, is because of a frequently asked question by my clients. This question is "so, you never feel bad anymore???"
It always shocks me imagining that they really think that, because the answer is "OF COURSE I FEEL BAD every once in a while"
But I can see how they would come to that conclusion. Clients only see me when I am completely focused on them which always means I push myself in the best possible mood at that time. Clients see my website which only talks about how wonderfull life really is - and it really is obviously, but I, just as you, do not see that always, all of the time. People see me on seminars, in my suit, or completely relaxed during an early morning meditation session I'm holding.
So I get why they might think that I never feel bad anymore. But that is not true! Ask my husbant for that matter! :-)
What is true however, is of course, that I know what is happening when I get in a bad mood and that I know that it brings a message and that I know what to do to turn it around and make it a blessing.
But to humour you - and myself :-), I am going to share with you a little out of the Vortex moment from The Life Coach during a blizzard in New York.
We had spent some beautifull sunny days in Fort Lauderdale and were returing to Belgium that day, flying over Newark. Our plain left at noon, so we were at the airport by 10am. At checkin they asked us if we wanted to take an earlier flight, because the one we were on was delayed because of heavy snowfall in New York. The lady assured us that Newark was staying open and that we could leave. So we did.
After circuling above Newark for an hour because of the bad weather, we finally landed. Arriving at the airport, everything was chaos, but like a miracle our flight was not cancelled and flying on time. So at 6pm we embarked, feeling happy and well.
6 hours later however, we felt a little less well. After having heard numorous announcements that we were going to leave in a minute, finally at 12pm our flight got cancelled. Having seen every Harry Potter movie available, I myself was ready to hex somebody.
But I staid calm and zen (I am a very good lier, especially to myself). A little blizzard and possibly an extra night an day in New York were not going to throw me out of my Vortex. (The truth being, I was already slightly out).
After half an hour of waiting (wasn't really more then a few minutes), when nobody made an announcement (which they obviously should have), I went to one of the ground-stewards, who friendly told me that the airport was closing and that we had to get in line to rebook our flight for he-did-not-know-when. Or that we checked by phone or online, which was probably the best idea, he said.
Hearing this, I thought, we have to get out of here. We're gonna take a cab to a hotel and come back tomorrow. My vibe was still pretty much ok. (so I told myself). Walking down the corridor, in a flash I realised I had left my newly bought, super-de-luxe, flashing red headphones on the plain. I turned around to go back, only to be abrubtly stopped by one of the 'the terrorists are going to attack us'- police officer. There was no way I was getting back in.
This sucked.
Calmly we walked to the entrance hall of the airport, (looked more like a stressed chicken running away from it's butchers) to look for a cab. Given the snow, sadly, there were no cabs, but luckily, I saw a little bus picking up people for a hotel, so we quickly ran up there and asked the driver if there were any rooms available. Again, another red flag, because the hotel was fully booked, but the kind man offered us a drive to the next terminal where there were telephones and lists available from all the hotels in the neighbourhood of the airport. Finally a ray of light ... my spirits lifted (which you could never guess by the look on my face) and of we were again!
Entering the other terminal, we immediatly sensed that this was not the right place to be. Desperate people where clinging on the telephones to trie and find ONE hotel that still had rooms available. As you can guess, I was one of those idiots clinging to the phone.
My heart jumped up as -after the tenth NO- a voice finally said: yes, we do have rooms available ...
But it sunk back in my shoes when I heard him continuing: ... but we cannot pick you up from the airport.
I was turning green.
But me turning green and tumbling out of my Vortex, does not mean I am gonna give up!
I found out that we could get to the trainstation by monorail. Fantastic, I thought, we're just gonna stay in New York City. That's even better!
Again I had cheered a little bit to soon, as just as we had decided this, one of the monorails got blocked by the snow, so the only direction we could go was the terminal we came from.
Bart wanted to do this (he is faster in accepting situations than I am :-), but I staid focused on getting to New York. And luckily I did that, because after a while, they decided tot use one monorail to go in both directions.
So we finally got on the train to New York. Which was wonderfull, but I have to be honest with you. Although it was working out pretty well, I was tired and feeling pretty low. My ego started whining, I was cold and I wanted my headphones.
Arriving in NYC, we immediatly found a nice hotel and went to bed.
The morning after, my spirits were quite ok, but that -again- was not for long. A few weeks earlier I had bought myself an Ipad. So I went online to rebook our flight. After a few annoying messages, basically saying that it was not possible to rebook online, my ego started whining again. But there was another option: we could call Continental. And so we did. And believe it or not, but after having been held on hold for almost half an hour, the lady on the other side said to me when I was finally connected: I am sorry sir, this seems to be a bad line and I cannot properly hear you, so please call back.
I shouted NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I CAN HEAR YOU PERFECTLY!!!!
But she had already gone.
Furiously I wanted to get back online to try and fix it there. You'll never believe this but, my new bought Ipad, which was my new favorite toy, went dead on me. No more life in it. And NO REASON WHY (hèhè :-)
I was dumbstruck. How could so many things go wrong?
My neck and shoulders were hurting. I had been getting so stressed, it was high time to let go!
Bart said: let's have breakfast first. Which we did. And you can image in which foul mood I was.
Coming back to our room, Bart rang back to Continental and after another half an hour, learned that we had been automatically booked for the 6.30pm flight that same day.
FINALLY SOME GOOD NEWS!
But it was not over yet.
We boarded on time that evening and the captain announced our departure in a few minutes.
If this does not shock you, it absolutely shocked me as ...
on that very moment, a day after the airport had been closed and hundreds (maybe thousands) of people had stranded there, Customs decided that it was a good idea to unload that whole aircraft again and check the luggage.
Three hours later, we finally flew back to Belgium.
Why am I telling you this story?
Well, obviously because you can see that I, and every other life coach, teachter or whatever nametag you can use, am just a human being, with human emotions and still makes the same stupid mistakes as everybody else does.
But more importantly because of the lessons in this story. The fact that:
* without all my mental rambling and resisting, the story could have been:
Luckily they held down the plain and shut down the airport so that nobody got hurt. Thanks to that we had an extra day of shopping in New York. The sun was shining brightly, the pavements were snowfree and it was the most beautifull day. We bought some clothes (as we were standing there in our Fort Lauderdale T-shirts and slippers) and had a fantastic time. We went back to the airport and counting our blessing we flew back home.
* we did have a fantastic time, even with my mental rambling
* due to my persistant focus, we did end up in a beautifull hotel, while a lot of people stayed overnight in the airport and had little or no sleep, let alone a beautifull day in New York.
* there is always room for expanding your ideas. Why did I resist so much? Certainly not because it really was that bad, because it wasn't! And I even saw that in the middle of my rambling. But you know what the thing is?
Expectation.
By learning to live more and more according to Law of Attraction and de 'knowledge' that you create your life the way you want it to, you expect that you decide the way it is gonna work out. And you do not expect things 'going wrong' anymore. And my internal fight was way more about the fact that 'this should not happen to me anymore', than the fact that is really was that bad.
It was not bad at all.
It was fantastic.
And I feel so blessed again to have received this beautifull lesson.
Contrast, I call it now, my new best friend, who teaches me the most profound lessons.
And of course, next time, on another occasion, I will again fall out of my Vortex. And ramble again.
But my conscious voice has grown stronger again, which will make the insights come quicker and with more ease. And that's what it's all about.
I wish you all big contrast,
with bigger visions of yourself,
and a quick and smooth ligning up with that new best vision of yourself.
Have a great day everybody!
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