Caught in between truths!

Dear readers,

Sorry for not writing to you in almost a week.

The reason for this is an argument going on in my head for quite some time now.

This actually is Abraham’s fault.

(I have to shock you don’t I?) J

Allow me to explain.

My life is beautiful.  I’m doing the job I love to do, I live in a beautiful house and have a fantastic relationship, I have great friends and meet new ones on our travels around the world, I feel blessed and inspired and I love life.

And still, there is so much more.  Not so much more I want to ‘get’ (although ‘getting’ is completely fine! J), but so much more I want to give.

I want to give an English website so that people over the whole world can find an contact me.

I want to give a book about my own story, because I believe it can be inspiring to people to quit the mess they (think they) are in and start living the life of their dreams.

I want to blog, facebook and twitter you guys every day, because every day I am blessed with so many insights that it seems such a waste not to share them.

I want to put my mediation sessions on audio and give them away for free on my website.

I want to give you videomessages on youtube.

But something holds me back.

And it is not a negative programming!

If it were that, I would change it, that is my job J

It actually is a POSITIVE programming.

Not even a programming, it is a TRUTH.

The truth being: I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING.

After some great coaching with my best friend and colleague-coach Inge Rock (yes, add her on facebook, she is great! J), we uncovered something that is actually so obvious, that I managed not to see it until now.  It is a condition I have been suffering from ever since I was a little child and that is: I do not want to do what you tell me to do!

I have always had (as so many of you probably) the feeling that I had to do a lot of things in my life that I really did not want to do, things that made only other people happy (which obviously did not work), or that I was supposed to do to lead a successful life.  Inside of me, there has always been an awareness that this was not how it was supposed to be, a feeling of unfairness.

Not being able to always ‘resist’ this awareness, I was often labeled as ‘bad’, as ‘smart but unwilling’, as ‘stubborn’ and ‘not-cooperative’.

However, being every bit as human as all of you, I tried to live up to these expectations, ignored my inner feeling and tried to live the ‘have-to-life’ … and –although never very successful- a ‘have-to-personality’ got created in my own mind.

And then of course, you come in contact with The Law of Attraction, for me best represented by Esther Hicks and Abraham, basically saying ‘there is nothing you need do’ and ‘you can be, do are have, everything you want’.  This obviously feels exhilarating to my long-not-heard inner child voice, who tells me now: ‘you see, I told you so, there is nothing we need to do!!!”

This of course puts you in a funny position.

I cannot ignore the voice of my inner child (not that I would want to J), because it has been ignored for so long, and more importantly: it is right!  On so many levels of my life by now, I have experienced this in the last few years working with this material.  The less ‘effort’ I did, the easier for example, money came flowing in.

On the other hand, I do want to do all these things listed in the beginning of my blog.  Not because I have to, but because I want to.  And if a want this to manifest, some action will be necessary.  Even I would be able to find somebody who writes my book for me (not that I want that, let us be clear about that J), I would still have to speak the words!

And this beautiful coaching session made this clear to me (thank you Inge!).  Both voices in my head are right, but until now, they have been opposing each other.  Whenever my adult voice said: ‘today we have to do this or that’, I got an immediate block of my inner child saying: ‘we do not have to do anything … look, even Abraham says so!’ J

So this blog is the first realization in making them communicate: the caring but still a bit too stressful parent in my head, and the child within only wanting to do what is pleasing.

And by the feeling in my tummy, it is a great experiment and I feel so happy sharing this blog with you.

There can exist two truths in your mind, that seem to oppose each other, but if they see each other’s truth, they can cooperate and co-create.

‘Co-creation at its best’ as Abraham would say J

There is great love for you here …

Have a great day lovely people x